I don't know what I've named my years before this and I can't say what I will name them after but I truly believe this is my transformation year and I don't say that lightly. I can honestly say I know myself better than I ever could have claimed to before.
I've always been someone that finds letting go difficult if not impossible so much so that I would find excuses to hold on to things or people even though they were harmful to my mental state. I don't know exactly what it was that happened for me in 2019; perhaps the strengthening of my faith in Jesus? Perhaps the loss of yet another loved one? But what I do know is that what ever happened has lead me to a true understanding of self.
I have a commitment to improving the flaws that I know I have and being the cheerleader for myself as I so often am for others. I will remain the optimist and see the glass as half full rather than half empty because that is the only way I know how to be but what I will not do is paint people in the light in which I want to see them rather than the light of truth.
I've had some great wins this year and one of the best was taking myself and my children to Barbados to see my mum for the first time in 3 years. When you have the type of relationship with your mother that I do with mine a hug from her is the best thing in the world; it's like winning the lottery whilst eating toffee fudge ice cream on a Caribbean beach. There is so much I have to be grateful for I won't list them here but what I will say is God is great, yes we suffer sadness, grief, emotion turmoil but we also encounter love, joy passion and peace.
I am now in a place where I am ready to take all that God has to offer me, I'm ready to build an empire and to slay every challenge that comes my way. This is now documented in writing so if you see me slacking remind me of my own words.
In this, my year of transformation, I give thanks for all my blessings and I pray that all who read this will find themselves blessed and will take all the pleasure that this life has to offer them and use it to grow and glow.
|Happy New Year Kings, Queens and In-betweens xoxo|