As part of my CPD I've been doing a course that at times I just find tedious. The extra workload alongside managing a classroom with challenging pupils and managing a home as a single parent can get a bit much. However we were recently set an assignment to 'self reflect' using these 10 questions that everyone should ask themselves from lifehack.org
Am I using my time wisely?
Am I taking anything for granted?
Am I employing a healthy perspective?
Am I living my true self?
Am I waking up in the morning ready to take on the day?
Am I thinking negative thoughts before I go to sleep?
Am I putting enough effort into my relationships?
Am I taking care of myself physically?
Am I letting matters that are beyond my control stress me out?
Am I achieving the goals I set for myself?
These are all very good questions that if I answer honestly in many ways I would find myself falling short. What is a wise use of time? If I’m happy in the moment but not productive, is that a wise use of my time? I would probably argue yes but then the lack of productivity would lead me to feel like I’d wasted time. Sometimes the drive to get more out of life means I take for granted the wonderful things I already have and have achieved. I do tend to be a glass half full type of person, which at times can mean I see the best of situations or people when really I should see them for what they are. One thing you can be sure of is I am completely and unquestionably me. I’m the woman that goes to church on a Sunday but isn’t afraid to dance around half naked because I’m having a good time. I’ve gone through so much in life that I’m not afraid to be honest both with myself and with others, even if it hurts. I wake up in the morning wanting to curl back into my bed but knowing that whatever the day brings I can face it. Unfortunately, sleep has not always been my friend and I have gotten into bad sleep habits, negative thoughts before going to sleep often surface without my explicit permission but I’ve learnt to silence them, at least sometimes.
Effort into my relationships, now this is a good question. Sometimes I put far too much efforts into some relationships and not enough into others, I’ve got to work on striking a balance. Needing to put effort into those relationships that are of benefit to my health is a definite goal. I take care of myself physically with regular exercise and am learning each day to let go of things that I can’t control. There are many goals I have set for myself that I have achieved or am well on the way to achieving and some that I know I may have to change for various reason but change isn’t necessarily a bad thing.