Wednesday, 30 December 2015

Reflections on Our Year

As grumpy as I was at the beginning of this year I managed to pick myself up and try to make the most of it.  I haven't travelled abroad or made shit loads of money (excuse my French) but I have been working again, I have spent more time with my family, I have taking my health and fitness more seriously.  I've also made a start on sorting out my home and am looking to the future whilst remaining positively reflective.

As a family we would never have guessed that the last few months of this year would have dealt us such a hard blow.  Unfortunately loss has the potential to take you places you never wanted to return, my anxiety has returned with a vengeance and although I am managing to get some sleep, it has not been an easy road.  As strange as it may be the person in my house that should be most affected is the one showing the most strength.

I am so thankful that I was blessed with my princess and that she knew her dad in such a way that his strength emanates from her.  We know we have a long road ahead of us but we are more determined than ever to make this year and every minute we have the best we can, together.

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Thank you to all my readers for sharing in our lives this year and we look forward to sharing more adventures with you in the coming year.  Happy New Year x

Thursday, 24 December 2015

On The Eve of Christmas

On the eve of Christmas, emotions are running high.
I woke up and sat with my coffee and I began to cry.
This year there was no discussion, no giggles at your plea
for our daughter to spend Christmas with you, rather than here with me.

She lays beside me sleeping and I wonder if she dreams
of years gone by at Christmas with you smiling in every scene.
Is it selfish of me to want you here when I know you're no longer in pain.  When I feel you are in a better place now and we will one day meet again.

Is it selfish of me to need you, when I know you cannot come and I know you'll be up there wishing good things for the kids me and your mum.  Is it selfish of me to keep crying and resent those who don't understand, that you were more than the father of my daughter you were one of my dearest friends.

You always tried your best to understand me, to ask questions before you'd judge and you promised me always to offer, your unconditional love.  You took on my son like he was your own from the very start, you put my needs before your own and gave to us all your heart.

Christmas is a time for family and I'm struggling to say the least but I'll do my best to make it special as I know you'll be proud of me.  As you sit in heaven with the angels, remember to send us a sign that you're having a merry Christmas and laughing all the time. 


Sunday, 13 December 2015

Okido - An alternative Christmas Gift for 4-8 Year Olds

My niece once told me that I'm the aunty that always buys her a book.  I wasn't sure at first if that was a good thing or not but she quickly reassured me she loved the books I gave her on birthdays and Christmases.  Toys are fantastic tools for playing, learning and fun but for me nothing beats the value of a good book.

The children and I attended the Messy Goes To Okido launch event back in September, apart from the show being great and very educational, there is nothing more I want to say on that event however, I was recently gifted a set of Okido magazines for Little man and they are FAB.  

Okido is an arts and science based magazine aimed at 4-8 year olds.  It is bright and colourful and packed full of stories, poetry, games and craft.  Each magazine is based around a theme, the ones we received we based on friendship, dinosaurs and television.

The look of the magazine alone is so appealing to young children and the poems and stories had little man giggling away.  The younger of the age range will need support with the reading and activities but from about 6-8 they are simple enough to be done independently.

So if you are looking for an alternative to toys this year then how about a subscription to Okido?

I was gifted 3 magazines which I we have enjoyed and chosen to write about, all opinions are my own.

Sunday, 6 December 2015

Santa Claus 2015 And The Night Before Christmas at Fairfield Halls

It was the night before Christmas when all thorough the house not a creature was stirring not even a mouse, when Santa Claus came to a town near you and delivered a smile and some foam snow too!

The children and I were lucky enough to visit The Studio at Fairfield Halls to watch 'Santa Claus 2015 And The Night Before Christmas.'  

I'd never watched anything in The Studio before and having been used to plays in the main theatre was at first a bit underwhelmed, however as the lights dimmed and the performance began I soon realised that the intimate space was exactly right.  It is basically like taking your children to see a store Santa but instead of just a quick hello to Santa and a parting gift (which they still get at the end)  they are introduced to the world of interactive theatre and spoilt with a delightful tale of a girl who didn't believe.

The story and songs are just right to get everyone in the mood for the magic of Christmas.  The play is delightful and you can even excuse the not so subtle lines of advertisement for Starbucks and Fairy liquid ;-)

At the end of the performance having said our hellos and goodbyes to Santa and receiving our parting gift we left The Studio singing Christmas carols and carrying the magic of Christmas home. 

We were given free entry to the show in exchange for this review.  All opinions are my own.