The lack of finances did however get me thinking, if money were no object, what would I actually want this Christmas?
Putting aside all the practical things you should do with money like making investments for the future, I know for sure that the first thing I would have purchased is a ticket back to Barbados. I miss my family. I miss my mum. The feeling of a full house she creates just by being present. It's taken me years to realise that as terrible as my mums singing is, there is nothing that comforts me more than dancing with her in the kitchen to whatever hymn she has chosen to ruin that day.
Whilst enjoying a Christmas in the sun I'd pay someone to refurbish my whole house, new flooring throughout, new sofas, new curtains new beds for the kids and a skip for all the crap we've collected throughout the years. That way I could come home to a newly decluttered and clean house.
I'd finally purchase the camera I've been wanting for the last couple of years and some lessons on how to use it properly!
And lastly, as sad as this may be, I'd buy a steam cleaner. I don't know if it's the grey hairs that have done it but I finally seem to be in the stage of my life where a new household appliance beats a new item of clothing, well at least it does until I'm actually in the shops!
What would you treat yourself to this year?